enough is enough,

i'm tired of feeling like this, i'm tired of you bringing my hopes up way too high only to be let down, i'm tired of always trying to keep up with you, i'm tired of how you make every single thing you tell me seem meaningless afterwards, i'm tired of always giving in, i'm tired of believing you.. i'm so damn exhausted. why do you have to make things so complicated for me? you know how i feel about this, you know how this affects me. yet, you let things slip out of your mouth as if it won't take an impact on me at all, like it won't hurt me whatsoever.

seriously! i really can't go on like this anymore. it's time to stop this, for real this time. no more, that's it, it's done, etc. etc. no more random visits to the past. let's part & focus on what's happening now.